us

love you . . .

love me . . .

love us . . .

us

cinta ku tak berdusta
tak mengenal ingkar
tak kenal nestapa
cinta ku hanya indah
hanya bahagia
untuk selamanya

apa yang ku rasa kan ini
persembahan untuk dirimu
kau dengar kasihku

mencintaimu
tak mengenal waktu
tak mengenal puitis
tulus nya hati
mencintaimu
tak mengenal ragu
keyakinan hatiku untuk dirimu
selalu

cinta ku tak berdusta
tak mengenal ingkar
tak kenal nestapa
cinta ku hanya indah
hanya bahagia
untuk selamanya

tak ada seribu janji
hanya bahagia untuk selamanya
apa yang ku rasa kan ini
persembahan untuk dirimu
kau dengar kasihku

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iam happy.

never felt so happy and loved for so long already. thank you for being here with me. thks for loving me so much. thks for the lovely moments. iam happy.

really i am.

away again

so iam going to be away again. for another a week. hmmm now that the new guys are back. could predict that things wont be the same again. wont be as fun. wont be as quiet. but well, i can only hope and pray that things would prove otherwise.

and also besides the fact that we could only meet next sun. pretty long. but well. 5 more months and hes out. hope it would be better by then.

somehow i still feel agitated for skipping the last episode of just in singapore. should have ignored my sis's invite to join her. haha.

and a moment ago yana was complaining to me about how tedious and annoying the process of studying over at germany is. having to go through a lot of documents. and visa approval. transfering cash from sg dollars into euros in order to come up with another account statement and yada yada... and able to speak german is crucial. and so she assured me (after experiencing herself) that studying at germany is afterall not a good choice. duh

peter said something earlier that made me erm... ponder. well it's not like as if i ve never heard it before. a couple of people have came up to me and said something similar. and i will never fail to feel pai seh . hehe. perhaps it was too flattering for me. heh. it also made me wonder how true those statements were.

viewing pleasure

i have gathered these three videos which i find very interesting. they are not new to us. perhaps most of you have seen it. i just love the creativity and braveness in each of the videos.

a new beginning

so i will be turning 24 tomorrow. something iam not looking forward for. heh. perhaps its the number. and the current situation iam at.

anyway yana flew off to germany yesterday to complete her masters. iam so goin to miss her. but well.... and congrates to ida for completing her diploma studies. all the best with your graduation show tomorrow. and since your graduation ceremony falls on my birthday, i bet it's a good sign. heh. and oh thks a billion for the present. appreciate it very much. so sweet of you to send it personally to me.

and so, i hope from tomorrow onwards it would be a new beginning for me. to strive for the better and to achieve my goals in life.

Inferiority Complex

always the last, always the slowest
always the least worthy, always the least respected
always the one to break things
always the one to displease others

trying his best, he could never catch up with his peers
running desperately far behind their footprints
he cannot kick a football properly no matter how hard he tries
neither can he stop bullies from kicking his backside

he may finish first in his favourite subject
but last in everything else
he may be excellent in debates
but absurdly terrible in arguments

when he keeps quite, others call him anti-soial
when he talks, everyone dislikes listening to him
when he keeps to himself, he is selfish
when he helped others, he is an offensive jerk

he says what he should not have said
he does everything he is not supposed to do
he succeeds where he is supposed to fail
he fails where he is supposed to succeed

slow coach, they jeer at him
the great sissy, they proclaim upon his entry
the teacher's pet, is his class alias
they never call him by his real name

no matter what happens, he is wrong
no matter the situation, he has failed
no matter the time, he is late
no matter where he aims, he misses

alone and homeless
depressed and sad
angry and frustrated
his emotions dissapear into him

he is odd
he is confusing
he is cold
he is different...

hating it

i think its the same old feeling again. just wondering when will this repetition ends. love the experience but hate the possible implications.

hate it. hate it